You are my sweetest memory

You were my first mistake

You are the man who will always be stuck in the corners of my mind as everything that I want

But at the moment cannot have because

The corners overlap

Into something I can’t control

In my thoughts your eyes change color

And your gate quickens with my feeling of wellbeing

And slows when I am scared

I will always remember the tone of your voice

As something that drifts with the passing of time

And I will always remember your touch

As gentle and all mine

Even when I didn’t care

Even when I didn’t see the shadows

Of everything that I fear

Being erased by your words

Being eased by the look in your eyes

Being chased away like a ghost in the night

And never to come back

Until the day that you left me

That day I will never forget

That day when I saw you walk away

I wish I could have seen the look in your eyes

As you turned away

Because I hope now that you were just as hurt

So I can know that it was real

I remember how your feet dragged across the floor

I remember how the hall lights shined down over you

Like you were walking into another dimension

One where faith didn’t exist

And love was able to fade

Where it was doubted

And I remember

Remembering the first time I talked to you

And now I look back to all the times we had

And I wish they would come back to me

So that I can trust in you

As a guy who knows me completely

And knows everything about me

Without doubting any part of my past

And wanting every part of my future